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Posted: 09/17/2008 in learning

i find myself saying, “i’m so tired of politics”… then today when i was thinking it, i thought right after that, i wonder what i really mean when i say that. i figured this was relevant since the journey has only begun with the election and such… but i know i say “i’m so tired of politics” about other things too! like organizations, work, church, etc. so what’s the difference between organization, managing, and “politics”?

it feels like when i say it, that i’m lumping  a whole bunch of concepts into one term and calling it good. but what exactly am i thinking or referring to when i say it?! well that’s what i decided i was going to figure out today.

“Politics is the process by which groups of people make decisions.” 

hmmm… (i’m researching this as i’m typing it.) so basically when i’m saying this, i’m saying i want to make all the decisions! LOL that sounds about right, huh! boy i should just let people do their job and worry about my own!

what does it mean to me…

Posted: 09/17/2008 in learning, life

to tithe…

time and money…

what does this mean?

what was god’s intentions when calling me to tithe?

am i buying stock in the company “heaven”?

am i buying my way to heaven?

am i paying dues to be a member of a club?

do i know the core reasons why i am tithing?

i know why i do it on the surface, but i feel like i need to look into the core reasons why i do what i do and what my feelings are when i do it.

i am

Posted: 09/17/2008 in life

I AM …  a sign language interpreter, a hardworker, a mother, a daughter, a wife, a friend, a co-worker, a daughter to the King

I WANT… to buy land and help my husband build a house SOON!

I HAVE … a beautiful daughter 

I WISH I COULD … do it all!

I HATE … people unwilling to learn, develop and continually attempt to achieve excellence

I FEAR … rejection

I HEAR … a man preaching on the radio

I SEARCH … for the deeper side of things

I DON’T THINK … people have any right to feel entitled  

I REGRET … not loving more. 

I LOVE … breyers natural vanilla and also chocolate ice cream (everything was getting a touch too deep for my own good)

I ACHE FOR … a home of our own with hardwood floors

I ALWAYS CRY … for orphans

I AM NOT … a push-over

I DANCE … with my lizzie faith

I SING … to my Lord

I DON’T … take advantage  

I RARELY … hug people who aren’t close close friends or family 

I CRY WHEN I WATCH … the youtube video about how many orphans are in this world


I HATE THAT … i don’t always stop and smell the roses

I’M CONFUSED ABOUT … the way people act when they claim god as their lord

I NEED … quality time with my hubby to feel loved

I SHOULD … not should myself

this is from stretchmarks i loved it and just had to do it myself!

auntie b

Posted: 09/17/2008 in family, life

i’ve been waiting for what feels like a VERY long time to write about this… since this is my only journal right now, i ache when i have something i want to write about but am unable to. but it’s time now, for various reasons, it’s time. 

i’m going to be an auntie again!

amanda and tim (my sister and brother-in-law) are adopting from ukraine! they leave very soon to head to ukraine (an fyi for ya. it’s improper to say “the ukraine”. it’s just “ukraine”) and bring home their child/children.

as many of you have probably heard the road to adopt is a very challenging one. it’s definitely a faith builder for all personally involved! but this is not what i want to focus on for this post. 

i am sooooooo excited! i haven’t cried like this in a long time (a happy cry, i mean). it felt good! what a time to praise! 

when amanda called with the news i lost it big. couldn’t even talk! the last time i remember feeling that way was when i was announcing we were having lizzie. i feel equally as excited today for amanda and tim. the road has truly been tough! but god is so good! 

she also said something very cool at the end of her phone call. she had read: when we ask god (this is not a direct quote) for something and we continue to ask for months and months, we even beg for months and months, especially when it’s something as deep as desiring children and we see no light at the end of the tunnel. there comes a point AFTER we PRAY that it’s time to PRAISE. even if we don’t physically see god working we KNOW he is! what immediately came to my mind was when a child announces they are hungry and continue to beg for food, even after you’ve started to fix them food and they can SEE you have every intention of feeding them very soon. they still continue to beg and plead as if you’ve been starving them for years and are showing no sign of feeding them anytime soon. when you’ve ALWAYS fed them when they’ve asked! god has never let us starve! i should know better than to act like he starves me, cuz he doesn’t! 

today we praise!