Archive for March, 2009

red

Posted: 03/31/2009 in abortion

today is the day. 

http://www.redenvelopeproject.org/

please remember…

have i blogged about this recently? i’m thinking i haven’t! 

there has been some serious progress made! it’s so fun when it’s unexpected. i didn’t plan on anything happening for another 2 weeks. 

last thursday i got an unexpected call from the bank saying they were finalizing paperwork and we would be ready to start writing checks and digging a big ol’ hole in 7 days or so. WOW! i’m sure my excitement and amazement was in my voice the whole phone conversation! 🙂 

right now the abstract office is working on our land stuff to get the deed divided and transfered. i’m searching for mock contracts and such. we will meet with the land owner this week and decide on the contract and such. i’ll also be getting a permit and making a few phone calls. this weekend we will be right a hefty check to the bank to get the ball rolling and also signing loan documents. the beginning of next week we’ll sign our first big fat check from our construction account and own land for the first time in our lives. 😀

this weekend we are ordering windows, exterior doors and forms. the hole is hopefully being scheduled this morning to dig two weeks from today, april 13th (all i asked for my bday was a hole in the ground, 4/10 is my bday. i think i got my wish!). 3 weeks from today we will have the icf’s ready and start forming walls and have the first round of concrete trucks and pump truck the end of that week, april 17th or so. right after that we will spray tar on the exterior below grade forms for waterproofing and start the floor joists and assembling the forms for the main level above grade, and the end of the fourth week (from today) start another round of concrete trucks and pump truck. then we’ll beg every masculine man we know to come for lunch or supper and lend their muscles to lift those trusses up on my roof.  and this puppy will be enclosed. then i’ll beg a few more of those men to come back for another superb meal and then maybe help roof on the side, you know in between meals while that superb meal is digesting. 😉 (at least it won’t be 100 degrees outside!) oh and give or take a couple weeks on this time line… 🙂

shwoo!

i’m so excited! 

i just can’t hide it.

oh me oh my!

Posted: 03/30/2009 in lizzie faith

this weekend was loaded with fun. 

we started the weekend out heading to osky saturday morning. we beat the snow and settled in to my parents house. 

not long after i arrived my aunt connie and uncle jim arrived from council bluffs. we had a fun afternoon! lizzie faith learned how to stamp! a-dorable! we soon switch out the real stamp pad with a mock one without ink so i could get some bible study homework done and not get pink ink EVERY WHERE!

eric called and said he tried to head north to eat supper with us all but struggled driving even on the highway with his old tires (we must order new one’s this week! it’s been on our list to do for months!! the car floats on the road instead of gripping it.). he stayed home and had some “eric-time” (later to find out that means cleaning the house entirely and doing the dishes and making the beds! i’m loved!). everyone came over to mom’s for hamburgers. (ben grilled! even in the snow! so dedicated!) everything was so yummy! it was loud – so you know everyone had fun!

it wasn’t long after the plates were cleared before the macbooks were pulled out of their bags and plopped on the tables with an audience to view who found what on google earth, house plans and who said what on their blogs. 🙂 *sigh* family! love it! 

lizzie faith and i slept in mommy’s old room and it used to be auntie color’s room too. it has all of the girly toys in it. the mini washer and dryer, sink and dishes, ironing board, table and food, oh did i forget dolls and such too!! it was hard to get that girl to go to bed. i finally just turned the light off and grabbed her and tucked her in to darkness!! i’m sure she was dreaming about playing with all those great toys! i was awake in the morning, but just resting with my eyes closed and i hear her sit up, gasp, and then i feel her breath on my face and she starts saying “mom, mom, mom!” over and over until i open my eyes and she is an inch away from my face, she looks up and around at all the toys and immediately gets off the bed and starts playing! she likes it up there. 

sunday morning i relaxed and prepared for a good friend’s wedding shower. the shower was wonderful and all hands and minds involved did a wonderful job! 

the trip home was smooth. lizzie faith was so very tired and slept the whole way. thank goodness! momma needed the break too. just me and the road, oh and the veggietales cd. 🙂  (you know you’re a mom when… he he he)

the high road

Posted: 03/26/2009 in spiritual growth

i think i’ve mentioned this already, i’m currently in a bible study studying the 15 psalms of ascent with beth moore in her “stepping up” study guide by lifeway.

it’s very good. 

i was doing my homework in the first lesson last tuesday and i was struck by something that will now be my goal and mission for this study. beth moore said, 

…but somewhere along the way we’ve got to quit getting in the mud with them. part of our ascent is learning to take the high road.

this hit home, hard! the high road, yep! it’s time. i’ve been ignoring this nagging feeling to deal with this long enough. it’s time. 

so what does that mean. what does the foundation look like? i’ve jumped up to the high road lots of times. i’d like to think i do that daily/weekly. i fall right through back into the mud though, almost every time. 

there has to be some sort of foundation or structure to hold me up. i’ll be living on the high road, not just visiting. i need some structure to hold me up permanently. oh i may trip, but i’m talking permanent residence not vacations when i’m feeling warm and fuzzy and think, “look i’m doing good!”

this weighs heavy on my mind all week. praying. thinking. 

tuesday comes and i go to bible study and confess my revelation/goals to my follow study-ers. it felt like to us, me, the whole entire lesson for this week is what i need to start building my structure to support this high road. i’m in awe. i’m overwhelmed. no backing out this time. 

one tip she mentions… when you’re going through a rough batch, 

move your mind up!

and you’ll be fine…

and,

we respond to what we say/sing…

when i’m really really ticked and all i want to do is yell at someone (i’ve improved on my own significantly since being married… but i can only improve so much myself…), i honestly need to make the tough decision and crank up the music and sing… (this is also why music that is bad can’t be tolerated… it’s our nature to respond to it.)

part of me is disappointed with these “taking the high road” instructions. then i stop and think why do i feel this way? and i realize, it’s because it’s not feeding my anger. it’s not gratifying. does that make sense? it’s really really hard. when i’m that angry and explosive, i only want to feed it and everything i do and say is feeding that feeling of exploding… it’s an addictive feeling. it really is a “high”. 

if it was easy then there wouldn’t be as great of a reward!

wowsa!

Posted: 03/25/2009 in life

that’s “wowsers” but if you say it faster it’s “wowsa”! 🙂 

it’s been a busy day! i’ll blog tomorrow…

my vision

Posted: 03/23/2009 in family

i was reading my Bible this morning and i read this verse about jerusalem as i was studying… 

psalm 122:3 (niv)

jerusalem is a well built city, knit together as a single unit.

this is my desire for my family. 

jerusalem was known and is still known for it’s sense of “home”. those who have gone and visited the modern jerusalem still feel it today and long to return and at each visit, the feeling to return grows more urgent. (according to beth moore)

i wish i could speak this from experience. this jerusalem is what i desire for my family and home.

monday’s

Posted: 03/23/2009 in life

i avoid…

cooking.

picking up.

folding laundry. 

doing dishes. 

anything and everything that needs done…

instead i savored moments with my daughter. (she leaned offering a kiss this morning, and tricked me by licking my lips instead! i was so shocked!) 

read my Bible. 

worked on my memory verses (psalms 121). 

mmm mmm drank a breve. 

and continued knitting a prayer wrap. (my favorite of all so far!) 

now off to eat lunch, pick up, and scoot to kville for some forgotten items from grocery shopping last week.