Posted: 05/05/2009 in spiritual growth

sunday morning was a rough morning for me. we got home late saturday night, and i was still exhausted. lizzie faith was crabby and fighting my every attempt to get her ready for church. her daddy came home between first service and sunday school and took her to sunday school with him, i followed as soon as i got ready. 

by the time i got to class i missed half the lesson. the second half was really good and i’m glad i went. i had considered giving up several times that morning. 

the discussion: responsibility

let me start here, this journey of unlearning started a few years ago when i slowly realized i had been taught unbiblical facts. one of the HUGE ones is this exact concept here. 

have you ever wondered when you’ve prayed for something, like to be patient or to be full of humility, why it sticks for a bit and then you are farther in the pit than you were before you started or you are back where you started… i believe the answer lies within this recap of our sunday school lesson. it’s 

it’s not God’s responsibility to do these things. it’s ours. and we will be judged accordingly. 


not what i wanted to hear.

eric and i have talked about it a couple times since sunday morning. i’m jealous, this isn’t a new concept to him. he’s known this the whole time.  he doesn’t have to unlearn and relearn. it feels like such a waste of time to be have to unlearn something. i’m weary of it. i’ve been doing a lot of it lately. 

here’s some meat to back up what i’m blabbing on and on about. i’ve bolded all that is OUR responsibility. 

Colossians 3:1-17

Rules for Holy Living

 1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

 5Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. 6Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. 7You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. 8But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. 9Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices 10and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. 11Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

 12Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

 15Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

this is so huge. this is all my responsibility! i can not depend on Christ to do these things for me as a leech, mooching from Him, expecting Him to take care of things that are my responsibility. what is my motivation to do these hard things, you may ask… “the wrath of God is coming”. He is coming to judge ME! how have i done on allowing Him to rule in my heart, clothing myself with such things as patience and compassion. how have i put on love which reaps perfect unity. if i’m not seeing the fruit of my labor (perfect unity) i am not loving like Christ. (ouch! did anyone else feel a stab…? i sure did…) i believe the wrath of God is coming on us Christians. we will be receiving the brunt of this. not unbelievers but believers. unbelievers are not bearing this expectation… this load… 

what part am i unlearning, you may also ask again? i thought i could pray for these things and poof i would get my prayer answered because God wants me to have these things. oh, yes He wants me to have these things, but it’s my job to do these things… not His… what benefit would it be for me if He did everything for me?  

everyday i choose these things… i choose to clothe myself with this and that, putting to death my selfishness and so much more and setting my heart and mind on things above… 

with all of that said and finally off my chest – i’m weary. overwhelmed with what i’ve just learned and the responsibility of it all. feeling guilt and shame for not getting this sooner… next repentance… 


  1. Jalaina says:

    You’re so funny. Don’t be too hard on yourself. At least now you get it and you are in search of truth and whatever else you learned incorrectly. Many people think they always have or had it right. As Christians we should always be growing and learning and searching.

  2. Sarah says:

    Ya know what? I think God has been doing a lot of work in your heart and life and I have seen a LOT of the fruit of that over the last 6 years. Its been a road. A true journey. I know that each of us in our own race may not see the fruit of what we are learning and putting into practice in our lives, but I for one have seen it in yours. Thank you for this great eye opener because even though its not a new concept to me its great to think about it again. Great points 🙂

  3. traci says:

    Oh the gift of free-will. Somedays I think wouldn’t it have just been easier if God created me with all of the things you listed, instead of leaving it up to me to decide how I’m going to handle things. lol I was just reading a small book Sunday, “God’s roadmap for moms ” and it has a list of topics – one page has verses and next page has a story or prayer, something like that. So 2 pages per topic. In the first few pages the topic contentment appeared. ugh…reality check for me. I even read some of those verses you listed on other parts of the book. Hmm maybe I’ll post a blog about my contentment problem…we’ll see:-) thanks for sharing!

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