Archive for May, 2010

Posted: 05/27/2010 in baby bean #2, me

well peeps

we’re pushing 37 weeks.

yes only 37 weeks. (and WOOHOO! THIRTY SEVEN WEEKS!!!!!!)

how do i feel this way when the numbers say 37 weeks?

they should say 40. (but i’m so SO thankful they don’t say 30)


sometimes, when walking by the mirror,

i glance over and say,

“oh shucks!

yep, it’s not right.

it will be a bit longer.”

(cuz my belly changes shape and looks funny at the very very end)

and then there are those times (like yesterday)

where there is no other way to walk but waddle because i feel like there is a ball between my thighs and i must master walking and holding the ball there. AND my belly is funny shaped.



yes the baby has dropped.

and “popped” back up.

and dropped.

and well you get the point.

how about i close this post with saying.

i’m losing sight of reality here.


Posted: 05/23/2010 in baby bean #2, me, pictures

enjoying this week

life will soon change forever.

lizzie senses it.

we know it.


car rides/trips will soon become a very very big deal instead of quick jots here and there.

sleepless nights will be because of a living being in my arms, thriving from nutrients from me.

not just aches and pains from squirms and wiggles.


i am so thankful for all who loved on me. the blessingway today was just that, a blessing.

thank you for each of your uplifting and encouraging spirits. the laughs and fellowship was so fun!

why don’t we do that more often?

this week, enjoyed having babies in the house – caused me to see why it is still handier for this peanut to chill inside just a bit longer… and why i so desperately want this BIG peanut ‘earth side’. (please, oh please, babe! not much longer…)

no matter, i’ve surrendered to God, to my body, to nature.

it’s not my time we are living off of.

it’s borrowed.

managed by One much wiser than i.

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the best {GIVE AWAY} ever!!!!

Posted: 05/21/2010 in family

ok seriously! this is the bomb!

i’m not biased or anything. πŸ˜‰

these lovies may look familiar…

this is my sister’s family.

they are working on their 3rd and 4th adoptions from bulgaria, gloria and mihail.

they will be traveling soon and we (my other sister and i) are following the Spirit as He moves us to stretch us and show us how He can work through us.

so join us!!!!

it’s super easy to enter! click on the photo above to enter and follow the instructions below.

All you have to do is comment and post a link to this blog post (adoption miracle’s blog post) on your facebook, blog or twitter comment sending people to our blog! And or add us to your RSS feed! You may have your name in the draw two times. You will need to comment twice and the two places you linked Β our blog! Tell your friends! We need to get the word out! We are going to give away a TON OF STUFF here! EVERYONE counts! It doesn’t matter where you are in the world! Join us!

to read more about my sister amanda and her family’s adoption journey go to her personal blog here.

or make it much much worse…

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… maybe i’ll go see if vacuuming vigorously does any good. πŸ˜‰


Posted: 05/16/2010 in baby bean #2, me

i know i am nearer to the end than i was yesterday or the day before…

i am so thankful for that.

i’m doing my best at waiting well

yet, i don’t believe begging God to not make us wait much longer is not waiting well.


or am i just doing what i do best, justifying???

please, LORD, not much longer. please!!!! this i pray knowing full well, You are in complete control and i’m just a peabrain who can only see 2 inches in front of herself. i’m thankful i can’t see the full picture, i know i can’t handle it. i know that You’ve created this process perfectly and Your works are wonderful and i pick Your way not mine.

ok now that’s all said. here’s a perspective.

according to our dates and calculations. i’m approx. 35 weeks pregnant. i’m currently not convinced. thinking (and praying) i’m farther along.

last time with lizzie (please ignore it’s horrible picture quality and how pathetic i look)

(42 weeks pregnant, lizzie 7lbs 14oz)

this is my absolute favorite cocoon to date!

it’s made out of 100% organic dyed cotton and of course, it’s my favorite favorite yarn too. it feels amazing. it’s not just that it’s soft, it’s the way it moves and such…

can’t wait to get this lil bean in it!!!!!

i was going to add in purple after the baby is born, if it’s a girl… but now i’m seriously thinking i just need to knit another one with purple added into this pattern. i’m lower on white than green and brown so a lot of the bulk white would be purple. oh what to do! what to do!!! πŸ™‚

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34 weeks

Posted: 05/09/2010 in baby bean #2, life

sorting baby clothes.

washing baby clothes.

dreaming of baby.

baby wedging under ribs.

baby cuddling with bladder. . .

. . . threatening escaping. or so it feels.

= miserable momma attempting not to cry.

’nuff said.

i’m dreaming of babylegs today…

you’ve seen these, right?

i never did get any for lizzie. though i wanted to…

i am desperate to get some knitting projects done for this lil bean and am happy to announce i’ve started working towards that goal!

i’m also forcing myself to knit a few baby GIRL things too.

meet pinkladies babyleg #1

lizzie calls them gloves

i just finished a white one… gender neutral. πŸ˜‰

i have a brown pair and green pair on my list… to do.

they are so quick and simple.

i’m enjoying knitting tiny and in a round on double pointed needles.

i know, since when??!!!

*rollin eyes*

i blame it on hormones. πŸ™‚


Posted: 05/04/2010 in baby bean #2, house, hubby, life, lizzie faith, me

it’s been a while, hasn’t it?

since i’ve written a post with words.

not just descriptions of photos of videos.

maybe it’s about time.

life upstairs has been surreal and wonderful.

i’m struggling with living in it and not obsessively cleaning and picking up and feeling exasperated that lizzie and eric don’t attempt to keep it magazine-looking and i’m alone in this task.

i know, i hear the ocd in that sentence too. or maybe it’s nesting!!!!! yea, that’s what i’ll keep telling myself. πŸ˜‰

i’m learning my balance of being good stewards and not getting my panties in a bunch when life happens thus requiring clean-up.

today is laundry day. and since we were gone all day yesterday it’s a mess.

even though eric did the dishes last night. *gasp* man! i’ve missed him!

going to osky once a week has really changed the way our weeks look.

i feel busier knowing i have to leave the house one other day besides grocery day and church day.

LOL i know. does that sounds pathetic or what.

but there is so Β much to do here! it’s really really hard to be gone another day every single week.

there’s still so much that needs done on the house – even though so much is done!

it’s somehow daunting and encouraging! it is crazy that there is a house here that wasn’t here last april.

life is weird.

talking about weird.

this house is surreal.

now adding another child to our family.


that’s weird!

although i’m so excited.

right now his name is grayven creed, “gray” or “creed”.

if it’s a girl, oh you poor love, mommy is so sorry you don’t have a name yet!

but i promise you will not be without a name forever, or too long after birth. hopefully. :/

this does not in anyway mean you are loved less!!!!

ok, now that the no-girl-name confession is off my chest….

at 33 weeks:

i weigh 133 lbs

somehow i am growing more uncomfortable and comfortable each day.

comfortable having this baby in my life. anxious for it. longing for the normalcy. wondering what the baby will look like. anything like his/her sister or a head full of black hair. πŸ™‚ comfortable with our decision to go to a chiropractor weekly and anxious to see the continued results! so thrilled with all the improvements thus far. uncomfortable because the bigger the baby gets the bigger mommy gets. πŸ™‚ which leads to tired feet and sore muscles. uncomfortable at the thought of labor again. oh how anxious i am for it to be over with…. it’s such a beautiful thing to experience, yet somehow it’s so dreaded too. weird combo of emotions.

i’m measuring on time! this is huge for me!!!! πŸ™‚ wonder if it’s true or if i’ll still carry to 42ish weeks. measuring can be so inaccurate!

the baby could not be more active. this peanut is more aggressive than i remember lizzie being. sharp-take-your-breath-away stabs and roll-by’s. makes me wonder if it’s an aggressive boy or stronger muscle tone due to no doppler use this pregnancy…

the baby has a say! we were discussing names a few days ago and bouncing back between “grayven” and grayson”. the baby was going nuts when we talked about “grayven” and nothing when we discussed “grayson”. then i realized the correlation and asked the baby if he/she (yea i don’t know what to think about this if it’s a girl! LOL) wants the name “grayven” and i got some serious take-your-breath-away jabs and then asked the same question with “grayson” and got nothing. i repeated it. just to see. and got the same results. looked at eric and said, ok we are done talking about this while the baby is awake. this is painful. LOL kids.

i’m more anxious than ever to see you, feel you, smell you, giggle over you, look into your eyes for hours…

i better stop or i’ll be depressed soon.

lizzie is thriving.

she knows all her abc’s. will recognize them everywhere. we are working on spelling/memorizing words, aka reading.

we are working on her numbers. she forgets about them because she loves letters so. much.! she just wants to turn her letter’s into numbers. πŸ™‚

wordgirl and super why on PBSkids are two of her FAVORITE shows. and i love it!!! she learns so much from them.

caillou on the other hand, is my least favorite. he whines so.much. he bawls over not getting his way and his momma let’s him get away with it. in my opinion…!

lizzie thinks barney is the bomb. mom does not agree.

she is fully using the potty. she wears a diaper at night. but usually wakes up dry. she prefers no panties. but we are staying on top of this and not allowing it. LOL kids. she has one or two accidents a week at the most. i think this makes potty training a total success and think it took about 3 weeks to arrive here!! WOOHOO! yesterday we were in osky all day playing at aunt colour’s house and didn’t have one accident. i just thought for sure she would be so caught up in playing we would have accidents. not to mention 2 1/2 hours in the car. NOPE! she’s too smart for that. LOL and mommy took her to the potty all the time. πŸ™‚ that helps. she has already attempted to use going to the potty to get out of situations she doesn’t like. like being bored during church. not allowed. very tricky for me to identify genuine or fake. but made the right call the first attempt. so hoping it’s not a battle.

she doesn’t like talking on the phone anymore.

prefers strangers to not talk to her. and if they do, she will blank stare ahead until they go away. which makes me GIGGLE! LOL i wish i could do that.

eric is happy resting nights and focusing on himself a bit more and enjoying lots more time with lizzie!