Archive for 02/23/2011

my skin is itching.
it’s time.
i can’t take it anymore….
i’ve reached a breaking point.
either explode or retract.
i want to run to what i know,
what feels most comfortable.
where i am wanted by ALL.
respected by all.
seen as a human,
with feelings.
and desires.
and not a young bimbo.
Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. 1 timothy 4:12

tough stuff.
i’m reminded today…
it’s NOT about me,
it’s about HIM.
about bringing Him glory,
honor,
and praise.

and i am committed to
doing just that…
in all that i do.

am i the one that when the going gets tough,
i dart?
i don’t want to be that person.
but it seems hopeless.
pointless.
stupid.
what do you think of the man who stands there and takes a beating?
do you think,
defend yourself
or
stand firm
or
turn and run?

i’m not a turn and run kinda gal.
i’m a stick-it-out-to-the-death,
will sacrifice relationships,
kinda gal.
i think that’s wrong.
i ruin relationships and in turn cause others to stumble.
WRONG!
do i skip to turn and run then?
or maintain at the stand firm stage?
if it were up to me, i’d play dead (wait til they aren’t looking) and RUN!!!!!!

today i am letting the simplicity of psalm 55:22 to settle in my soul and bask in it’s security and hope.

Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let
the righteous be shaken.

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