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he’s here!

Posted: 06/25/2010 in baby bean #2

jace legend arrived june 24 at 5:09am after laboring since 2:30am

he is 7 lb 15 oz and 21 in long

thinking brown hair…. 🙂

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he was in me… i just can’t get over it!

YES! that “1/2” is VERY important! 😉

lost

Posted: 06/18/2010 in baby bean #2, me

i will confess

i’m losing my mind

i’ve lost my mind

mornings and evenings are the worst

i really shouldn’t be blogging during ‘the worst’

perspective is all lost during this time

here’s the deal

yesterday was it

well this girl sure thought it was

no water breaking, but enough other signs i thought surely the night would be an exciting one

nope

no excitement

just burning

wake up to burning

get up and pee

go back to bed

lay there desperately trying to ignore the uncontrollable need to itch

oh! there’s another contraction

ok now you are just annoying me

more itching (i’m not scratching this itch, mind you)

what’s with the itching??

here ya go – it’s called puppp

some people drop off the last p

up to you

you are a big girl – you can decide

it’s easier to just say “pups”

no need to worry about how many “p”‘s are involved this way

regardless – it’s awful

i’m DONE!

top this all with a nice wake up call from mr charlie horse/leg cramp and i think we’re off to a great start for the day, what do you think? (i think brownies are going to need made today)

all i know is, i honestly think i’ll be sleeping like a dream when this babe finally arrives

ok back to puppp’s

thankfully it is mostly only on my baby bump

there are a couple patches here and there elsewhere but nothing that is getting worse or burns like my belly

it actually feels like a burn at it’s worst stage of the day

it’s the strangest thing

the girl who’s never had a hive is FREAKING OUT!

what i’m doing naturally to get through it:

apis homeopathy

beef, beef and BEEF (best form of bvits for adrenal support, because it’s believed this happens only when adrenals ‘crash’ are majorly stressed – hmmmm sounds about right)

pantothenic acid (b5) from nsp (supports adrenals)

b complex (supports adrenals)

liver support, dandelion from nsp

d3 (really REALLY helps with the pain aspect of this horrible stuff)

zinc  (a wound healer) from nsp

oatmeal bath (i did do a couple oatmeal baths in the morning. put a cup or so of oatmeal in an old sock and tie the top of the sock, let the sock into the hot water with you and squeeze/massage out the milk. this helped while i was in the bath tub and took the edge off for a few minutes outside of the tub for me to at least get a grip – thinking some sort of paste would be amazing if you can handle the oatmeal smell. i can not. some lotions are major irritants. so be careful what you try. you may be sorry for daaaaaaays.)

wear as little as possible. for me, it’s rotating between pants and shirts and nightgowns orsun dresses. this gives me an alternating ‘break’ during the day from the top half of the rash and the bottom half. the bottom half of my rash gets a break from being rubbed by pants and the sundress rubs the top of my belly, so switching to pants and a shirt, i can lift my shirt above my belly so air can get to it….

be aware of what aggravates it! for me, it’s beeswax and honey… applied or any balms made with….

if you’ve had this. i feel for you! in a whole new way, do i feel for you. 😦

if you have not,

you are fortunate

i’m jealous

don’t talk to me about it right now

even a “wow, i did not have that with all my 3, 5,7,8,  10 of my pregnancies”

it will probably make me cry

today is day 3 of treating it

i’m praying for major improvement

pray with me?

i can honestly say, i’m desperate like never before in my life

(just a heads up. i was asked yesterday if we are done having children, now is not the time to ask… ask again in a few months)

be real

Posted: 06/11/2010 in baby bean #2, me

i’m thinking it’s time to be a bit real.

the end.

it stinks.

it’s hard.

i thought the second time would be easier.

gearing up for labor is… well, labor.

maybe i shouldn’t have marked my calendar.

i did.

may 14 was when my body started working hard towards labor.

i truly did not believe, on that day, that i would be pregnant today.

i was certain my baby would be in my arms within hours.

i am very jealous of those ladies who just go into labor.

they do not have unpredictable, sporadic, hard contractions for weeks.

and just seem to suddenly go into labor.

they are rare… but i can still be jealous of them, right?

yea, probably not wise.

i recognize that each contraction is progress.

it’s just not the progress at the speed i’m after.

i’m the, let’s get-er-done type and well that’s not at all what happens at the end of my pregnancies.

i have no control.

that’s the problem.

that’s what it all boils down to.

i choose this.

i choose no intervention, no matter what.

i choose to trust my body and nature and know that this design is way beyond me and my peabrain and all of this is necessary for a reason i will never know.

and that intervention can cause a ripple effect of problems that i choose to avoid.

i have to find peace in that…

…knowing this is what is best.

peace i will find…

somewhere.

somehow.

i believe the end is hard, because labor is harder.

and well, i am a big baby. so i need prepared for the harder things.

i need the hard thing so i actually get to a point where i look forward to the sweet release of the labor and birth.

there is something in me that is desperately craving labor and birth.

something that i can not get out of my head at any moment i am awake.

and when i am sleeping, i’m having dreams of contractions/water breaking/ and crowning.

it’s all consuming.

and out of my control.

if it could be willed to happened, it would have been already.

who doesn’t want to just finally experience something they have been desperate to happen for so long?

it’s time to be done.

it’s time to know.

it’s time to move on to new challenges and dynamics.

it’s time.

so remind me why “it’s time” does not mean NOW?

taken at 38 weeks 6/6/10

we went shopping

Posted: 06/10/2010 in baby bean #2, pictures

overboard you say?

normally i get a few things myself… and then after the baby comes, mom and my sister’s go shopping at target and herbergers on their way here and bring some cute gender specific stuff and eric gets right into the laundry.

BUT the sale was NOW at herbergers.

and it was a GOOD sale!

and i wanted to pick things out myself too!!!!

so my thinking was, we’ll just take back whichever gender we don’t need.

i think my eric was right, i’m going to have a hard time parting with whatever we don’t need… i will want to save it for the next time! so lovin’ all of it!

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the new stuff mixed with the stuff i’ve already gathered, hammy downs or bought this pregnancy.

i think this kiddo will be dressed well.

doesn’t have a name – but will be dressed well. *rollin eyes*

i’m still working on this blanket.

3.5 inches past half way point.

WOOHOO!!!!

that means i have only 11 inches left to go.

*gulp*

that’s a week’s worth of knitting every single opportunity i get.

good grief.

this is definitely an heirloom.

and will likely never do a blanket like it again. LOL

here’s the set.

my sister, heather knitted the hat and cocoon. how adorable, huh! 🙂

i’m not spoiled. i’m well-loved!