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radical {2}

Posted: 07/14/2011 in books, me

a pet peeve of mine; when others speak of Christ as a wishy-washy God, all loving and not recognizing a huge part of God…

when i read this section from the book, it really stuck with me and i’m convicted that i am guilty of this!!

Peruse the Christian marketplace, and you will find a plethora of books, songs, and paintings that depict God as a loving Father. And he is that. But he is not just a loving Father, and limiting our understanding of God to this picture ultimately distorts the image of God we have in our culture.

Yes, God is a loving Father, but he is also a wrathful Judge. In his wrath he hates sin. Habakkuk prayed to God, “Your eyes are too pure to love on evil; you cannot tolerate wrong.” And in some sense, God also hates sinners. You might ask, “What happened to ‘God hates the sin and loves the sinner’?” Well the Bible happened to it. One psalmist said to God, “The arrogant cannot stand in your presence; you hate all who do wrong.” Fourteen times in the first fifty psalms we see similar descriptions of God’s hatred toward sinners, his wrath towards liars, and so on. In the chapter in the gospel of John where we find one of the most famous verse concerning God’s love, we also find one of the most neglected verses concerning God’s wrath. (psalm 5:5 and john 3:16, 36)

i don’t know about you but i needed this reminder!! wow, how destructive it is to not study the Bible on my own… IF i would have been on a daily basis prior to this week (biblein90days) as a lifestyle, i would have seen on my own how this is true and not allowed these thoughts to live in me and dominate my decision making!

after reading just the first two chapters of this book i’m feeling very convicted. recognizing truth straight from scripture – how do you even argue with that?

i’ve paused again in reading to make myself chew over a new battle with my self…

We prefer to sit back, enjoy our cliches, and picture God as a Father who might help us, all the while ignoring God as a Judge who might damn us.

Maybe this is why we fill our lives with constant drivel of entertainment in our culture – and in the church. We are afraid that if we stop and really look at God in his Word, we might discover that he evokes greater awe and demands deeper worship than we are ready to give him. 

i will admit right here, i am afraid to stop and really look. up until now, i have allowed it to cripple and hinder my time with Him and my entire life. not anymore.

i can usually find the words to say the right things and do the ‘right things’ to imply and get other’s to believe, i’m in a different place spiritually than where i really am. this facade is going down! i’m tired of the guilt that comes along with it. it’s time to really allow God to be Lord of my life. i’m really understanding what that means. scary. but how i’ve been living on my own is waaaaaay scarier!

besides, you all know the truth anyway! you can’t tell me i’m the only one who can tell when someone is lying… this lie specifically has destroyed relationships and burnt bridges – it’s way past time to stop.

it’s time.

radical {chapter 1}

Posted: 07/06/2011 in books

i started reading radical by david platt this week with a dear friend. can i just say coming to the place to read it is a few blog posts in and of itself… glorious and God filled does not near describe it.

i had all kinds of ideas about what this book was about – what it would make me do – how it would make me uncomfortable. slap me across the face and tell me i don’t need another pair of flip-flops. live bitterly without them.

wow. was i ever wrong.

heads up: no bookmark needed for radical. it’s SO obvious where you stop. the scribbles are EVERY WHERE.

the first challenge that struck me in chapter one was: am i going to believe Jesus? regardless of what he tells me. do i believe that he really will carry me through. (not my way of carrying me through, but his…). that hit me below the belt. it really did!

hold up, i made a decision prior to starting this book, that i would NOT blow anything off. i would digest everything and if i couldn’t commit to a concept i knew was straight from Christ then i would stop and chew until i was in 125%!

ok, what was i saying…? oh yea….

the cherry on top: am i going to obey Jesus? convo in head: well there was this one time, in an itty bitty way, i obeyed. so sure! i can do it again…. what if it’s a bigger one, like sell your house and move to africa? *pause* and then this thought crosses my mind: what if he tells me and i have (allow myself/choose) to turn away pretending that i didn’t hear his command. and then david platt writes,

“… my biggest fear even now is that i will hear Jesus’ words and walk away, content to settle for less than radical obedience to him. in other words, my biggest fear is that I will do exactly what most people did when they encountered Jesus in the first century.”


he nailed it AGAIN! man this guy is good. *flip book over looking for a picture of him* who is this guy? i’m only on PAGE THREE!!!

more to come…. go buy the book now and get to reading. before i tell you everything in it!

it IS! a smashing idea!!

Posted: 02/08/2011 in books, creative

have you seen these????!!!


oh my heart just started pounding as i was uploading that picture and video!!!

this is every perfectionist’s dream! freeeeeedooooooom!!!

no boundaries.





oh april! please come quick!

in the mean time, my sister had a grand idea! use a composition notebook!


i should have thought of that!!!

here’s mine after 5 minutes!!!!

oh there is so much more i need to put in here.

i wonder if i will be able to sleep tonight without putting all my knitting patterns and pictures of done projects in it…..

ravelry suddenly isn’t as cool for storage as it once was. 🙂

hmmmm the perfectionist just popped out! everything doesN’T have to be in the same place….


ok so here’s a bit more from raising godly tomatoes (can you tell i’m avoiding laundry? is it really that obvious? …yea… i thought so… :} )

elizabeth talks about “mommy radar”. everytime she is annoyed with something that her child does, her mommy radar goes off. she is annoyed by their behavior. she thought for a long time that you are just supposed to ignore it, figure out how to tolerate the annoyance, and wait and hope that “stage” passes soon. (it never passes! only grows into deeper bigger problems/issues) then she goes on to explain! the annoying feeling we feel is “mommy radar” = stop what you are doing and train your child not to do whatever he/she is doing. how easy huh! 

so how do you train this annoying behavior? when they do this act, won’t come when you call them, you immediately stop what you are doing and walk up to them and spank they diapered/clothed bottom. (i didn’t think this was going to do ANY good because she can’t feel much, but this has been MOST affective!!!) walk back to where you were standing before and tell them to come to you. repeat this until they come to you on their own. and praise them and tell them to come the first time they are called. 

i plan to have sessions-of-reminders before going grocery shopping, church, etc. so she is reminded what is expected of her. i shouldn’t need to do this any longer in a couple weeks.

after a few sessions of the above, my daughter, who would not come when called, now comes when called. 

these methods in this book are training your child to obey. not to learn how to do this task or that one, but to obey anything and everything you say no matter the circumstance. 

train them to obey you. train them to pay attention to you and do what you say. – e. krueger

be careful to listen to all these words which i command you. in order that it may be well with you and your sons after you forever, for you will be doing what is good and right in the sight of the lord. deuteronomy 12:28

obedience is just an easy straightforward key to reaching the heart and to changing it. – e. krueger

i don’t know about you, but i want my husband and i to be the ones molding my child’s heart. 

next on my training list:

sit (teach her the act and sign) 


ps: what training methods do you use/prefer?




i have lots of ideas for my lizzie faith. lots of things i want for all my children… i want to homeschool them, i want them to be fluent in sign language, i want them to understand the importance of courting and choose that method of “dating” for themselves  and be grateful for it. 

one i find very important is purity. 

for my son, if i have a son, this will be such a struggle for me. such a frustration – the way girls dress, etc. (i want to pass this book out to every infant girl i know for the sake of my possible future son! LOL)

the princess and the kiss


my sister showed me this book a couple years ago, or maybe it was just last year. either way, i hadn’t had lizzie faith yet and really couldn’t fully understand what my daughter’s purity would mean to me. check it out here at

when i found out i was pregnant. my prayer life went through the roof. oh the things to pray for. besides the midwife trauma and preparing to have a uc birth, the hormone crazed prayers, i prayed for my daughter’s (i knew it was a girl ;))  purity. i prayed her father and i could protect her while she was in our care from all the crazy men in this world. that we could raise her to realize her worth and that a man only worthy of her could have her and that man’s worthiness was to be decided by all three of us (lf, her father and i), that the unity of the kiss and physical touch is reserved soley for a man and his wife. and if it is broken, is harmful to her future marriage. i pray continuously for these things and so many more. i pray she is spiritually grounded as such that when she is of marrying age that she is hearing the holy spirit and does what he says. 

ok! she’s only 15 months old. ok back to tickling, giggling and twirling!


j. vernon mcgee

Posted: 11/20/2008 in books, hubby, life

do ya know who i’m talking about?? ok if not, click here

my hubby loves listening to his preaching on his mp3 player while he is working. 

last night while we were trying to drift to sleep, he is quoting j. vernon mcgee. (please do click above and listen to the way he talks and picture my husband doing a perfect impersonation!)

mcgee says that he doesn’t get how people say, “that car is sexy” etc. and he says, “i tell you what is sexy, the word of God is sexy”. (not a direct quote) it cracks me up every time!! this 80 yr old guy talking about how the Bible is sexy! shwoo! it’s great!

sometime ago eric found this website where you can download mcgee preaching verse by verse about each of the books in the Bible. my hubby LOVES listening to preaching directly from the Bible. he gets frustrated because people call studies “Bible Studies” when they are actually studying books, like The Five Love Languages or something and not studying the Bible at all. (not to say those books aren’t biblical, they are, maybe, but they aren’t the Bible…)

back on track. 

this morning, i’m brainstorming trying to think of something nice i could do for eric. he had laid a magazine out with a commentary by mcgee he wanted me to look up and find cheaper online for someone to get him for christmas. so i did that. and found it for 60% less than what the magazine was selling it for. WOOHOO! 

then i realize he wants ALL of the books of the Bible so he can listen to them. (he only has 1 peter right now) and the reason he didn’t download more is because we only had my old laptop at the time and it couldn’t hold squat. 

i started downloading the whole thing! i have the old testament all downloaded and burning to a dvd right now (for him to put into his computer and transfer onto mp3 player) and the new testament started downloading – should all be complete (burned to a dvd) in a couple hours. i’m so excited! i hope he’s surprised when he comes home. (i was going to save it til christmas, but i just can’t! i’m too excited!)

i’m feeling like a good lil wifey today! i’m even baking crispy chicken with potato wedges and corn. YUM! now off to pick up toys while liz is sleeping. 🙂 



Posted: 10/17/2008 in books, learning, life, parenting

oooh this is a touchy one…

my mom was constantly “reminding” us what was modest and what was NOT! 

we were not allowed out of the house with shorts shorter than our finger tips and that was a FIRM rule. 

knit tops have been questioned at times because  of their form fitting. 

jeans too tight…

v necks too low…

so growing up, i had rules and standards of how to dress. i honestly thought it was just to tick me off, but one day it hit me – oooh there is a valid reason for this. and it isn’t just to try to make me act out (i had such a horrible outlook as a teen! i’m so sad i added validation to the “typical” teen stereotype. i still believe it is avoidable.)

how can you deny immodesty’s affect?  

i’m a 24 year old male looking for a wife. it is not as easy as it seems to find a decent girl. i want one who not only says she is decent but looks as though she is. a friend of mine married one of the girls of the church. she wasn’t the most chaste dresser, but he was sure that once they were married she would sober up. she says she does not feel convicted about how she dresses, and he can only push so far to change her. i avoid him since he married, because i got aroused the whole time i was around them due to the way his wife dresses. it leaves me disgusted, frustrated and angry that a stupid, silly girl can cause so much trouble. sometimes i feel my own body betrays me, but i know i am a normal male with a normal need, and the problem lies with females dressing so godless. talk about dishonoring a man, all the rest of the younger females in church dress as bad or worse. i had rather not get married than end up with a silly wife like her. seeing jacob embarrassed by his wife scares the rest of us unmarried men, because, as much as we want to get married, we sure do not want to end up being dishonored as he has been. i want a girl who has not encouraged a thousand other guys to commit sight-adultery with her by how she dresses. i want a woman i can be proud to call my own little hidden treasure. how could a man ever trust a woman who, before she got married, “let it all hang out” for everyone to see? i guess the big question for me is, ho do we single mend find chaste girls to marry, girls who are not interested in how sexy they can dress?

james g.

created to be his helpmeet by debi pearl


as i think about how i dress and why i wear what i wear and i think about what i desire for my children (boys and girls) this hits home to me. 

you may think james is weak because he was affected by this and men should become immune to it because a girl has rights to wear what she wants. (the bible says that god is the head of man and man the head of woman –  so does she get to wear what she wants!?! 🙂 ) 

i know that i have ideas of what i think is modest and i believe i am a modest dresser. my husband has only said something once. and he asked me not to wear it to church. and i then asked him, if you don’t want me to wear it to church i shouldn’t own it!!!!!!! it blew my mind! at that point in our marriage he hardly spoke up about anything – so for him to do so about this; it must have been serious! i thought i was modest! i honestly did! i wear that top to clean the house now. how embarrassing for eric! i do not want him to be embarrassed by me! maybe your man is proud that the way you dress arouses other men! but that would be shameful to me! 

when i read this article this week; whooooo it really hit home to me! it really just made it all so clear to me.

my own convictions:

no shoulders showing (my husband has stated this is a peek of what is connected to my shoulder) 

no shorts (unless bermuda – knee length or longer)

no tight jeans

no vnecks without a shirt underneath to cut off the bottom tip of the v

no tight shirts (knit tops are currently under the microscope) 

mid length to longer skirts are a plus and will be worn as often as possible. (once i find a few that i like! some of these are newer standards – so shopping is in order!)

i think i honestly lived in denial! of course me wearing this would not do that to any man! and if it would, shame on that man for looking!!!! oh no! shame on me for wearing it!

i am guilty as charge!!

i am once again humbled and convicted.

i again am reminded to pray for my daughter, possible future son(s) and daughter(s).